I’ve been wanting to write an entry for a week now, but every subject that pops into my head soon fizzles as boring and worthless.
Even now I’m considering holding the delete button down until every word I’ve written so far disappears.
How often do you go through your previous accomplishments and think, “Wow. That’s some good stuff?”
Part of me winces at the thought, because it smacks of pride, and doesn’t “Pride go before the fall?”
Regardless, I think it, and worse, I believe it. I have written some good stuff. I just wish I could do it all the time.
If I dig a bit deeper, it’s not only that. I don’t want to have to work hard to accomplish it. Some people seem to write the good stuff without much effort. They’re inspired by little things they see every day, whereas I have to spend days – if not weeks – searching for even a smidgeon of an idea – many of which never take root.
I know I’m being overly harsh on myself. I am who I am; my gifts, desires and talents are unique to me, and I shouldn’t compare myself to others. No. That’s not quite true either. I need to look at what other people accomplish, not with envy or jealousy, but as a way to motivate me to do better. I need to work hard, so when I look back I can say with complete honesty, “I did good.”
And I do. For the most part. Just not as often as I think I should.
Then again, there’s nothing wrong with working hard to achieve a goal. Working hard is what makes us appreciate our accomplishments more. If it were too easy, then it’s not a real accomplishment.
To use an example, let’s say I run around a track in five minutes, but I cross the finish line at the same time as someone wearing prosthetic legs. Which one of us accomplished more?
For me at least, I shouldn’t write because it’s easy. I do it because it’s hard. Maybe not all the time, but often enough. That way, when I do succeed, I can be proud of myself. While pride may make us stumble, it can also motivate us to continue to strive for success. Like everything else in life, it’s a matter of finding balance – and being honest.
“Never go to excess, but let moderation be your guide.”
~ Marcus Tullius Cicero
It ain’t bragging if it’s true.
~ Will Rogers